Broken Soul in Two

Another drawing I did in 2006 during my frantic need to draw, didn't know what it would be until it was finished and that is what came about. I call it

"Broken Soul in Two" - "My illusions were shattered long ago about life and have learned the hard and vulnerable way all that you think is gold is really gold plated and is deeply tarnished" One small part of what I've found out regarding the meaning of life ..

A Poem I wrote to go with it--

PAIN PAIN GO AWAY, I CAN'T TAKE THIS ANOTHER DAY

What can be said to a hardened soul
Who’s Tired and lonely
Feeling so cold

With a heart warming smile
outside to the world
Inside bleeding
with death at the door

Hidden within, the demons reside
Torturous feeling
Trying hard to decide
Is life worth living
Or is it easier to die


Pretending to be
So happy and true
Not wanting those around
To see a soul so blue


Sometimes happiness comes at a price
A feeling so good
Briefly releasing the vice

Then a turn of events
Not expecting to fall
So sudden it happens
not understanding at all


Then you look in the mirror
And wonder but why
As tears start falling
Starting to cry

You question yourself
You’re nightmare begins
The thoughts start surrounding
The thoughts of the end

It would be so easy
First here and then gone
No more pain in the heart
No more lonely sad songs


No more lies to yourself
No more lies to the world

No more questions of love
No more questions of pain


Not having to smile
So no one can see
The true feeling behind
A real heart that can bleed

But can you really see
Behind those sad eyes
Is anyone looking?
Or is it all just lies

When life gives you lemons
And turn’s to sour taste
you can’t make lemonade
From the stone bitter taste

A place of darkness
A place of peace
If silence is golden
Then it’s a place
I’d much rather be


No more goodbyes
No more hellos

I’ll just go

Silently…

Written by Amanda Walton September 11-09
Illustrated by Amanda Walton 2006